God, there was such pain
Constant
Bombardment
The love of a lifetime toppling as the city wall
A series of shofar blasts heralding not justice and courage, but cruelty those years
These years, I tilt my head hoping to drain the ringing and echoing from these ears
All an image or impression away — the mountains, the oceans, and desert sands steal me back
Or a wedding song
A life that escapes me, a pain impossible to escape
‘Tis most true to say
she was stolen away by
her integrity.
Wherefore in my dreams
Parsing out and making sense of my disobedience days
Moving at wrong hours through constructs of old, breath held, so as to remain unnoticed
Down hallways, past ghosts that do not think they’ll remember me this time around
All the while wishing for my new best friend,
I look for you
Find you perhaps
Then lose you again, for certain?
No knowing, anymore
No trusting
Houdini at the helm
While, wide-eyed and wondering
We write
Stepped outside
It’s still enough
Breezeless
To allow me
My fragility
Impatiens still patient
Street lights still willing
At this hour
This darker season
Giving to me
Courage
Calm in my craze
Righted in this firmament
Glad for Sun and for Moon
Still
I waited a lifetime to be lied to by you
To be held close and told I was always the one
My hat’s off to you, for you studied me well
Alone, and again abused, by my best friend
Forgive me, My Love, but I am slow to learn
This was all a mistake, surely you’ll come to say
I’ve been holding my breath, certain you will return
Does the Universe want me to stop waiting, Dear?
Brought your A-game, the victory, yours
Punted away the ball, nothing to lose?
Found a penny, pockets so full
Left it laying to corrode, not worth wishing upon?
Rose, like no other, name you dreamed of
Loved with abandon, but for her thorns?
Find you she will, she who’s your own
Knot unending, what prayer will find you?
Should you waste such wisdom, you weren’t worthy….
You’ve mistaken me
Forgotten I’d told you
My childhood day-to-days fuel me still
Hope beyond reason
Vision despite the midnight blue
These ever-present gifts to me
I’ve years to your Days
In your all-knowing, understand this
You’ve nothing to give
That I haven’t got
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