heal thyself (2)

My
Undoing
Began at the beginning
Defending the should-be defender

All I gave, all it took
There it was, their rain
Always asking 
Never, ever answering 

I think I thought 
It fed me to feed
Now I am fat of myself 
And starved of them

heal thyself (1)

I must stand
Born under some mandate
To remain flexed at the ready 
But for this 

As I am organic
Cracking apart, waning with each moment
I cannot stay
Staid

For this story
And to tell it
With due care and congeniality 
I must sit

Betty

Doll-play 

Lasted all of three months

For me my friend

Declared abandoned 

Once the pattern repeated

Once two many times 

For me to ignore

How they toss her aside 

From their box

And steal her pretty shoes