Seedling, Know

“I love you with every bit of my heart,” and I went on and on

Some pleading to an audience of none

“You would’ve always been the only man for me. You renewed my hope and changed my life. I was so excited about us. We were going to love and take care of each other for the rest of our lives — yes? I was working hard to become a better version of myself….”

Then some seedling
Sown, thankfully
Sprung from beneath the freeze
Reminded me
In reality
Was and were and what would’ve been

Were as empty husks

A thorny nowhere, to which you dropped me

Fields of memories from some cliff you chose

This, my grain, my daily bread

Seedling, know, you saved the hour
Today I’ll reap none pain-filled breath

Goodness Ocean

I take my leave from those who gaze, idly
Or avert their eyes, altogether

Onward, Ho! To teach!
To share air — and indeed, to breathe!

For I can only learn and grow
Alongside those who will take their turn
Do their worst, and make such noise

To right the wrongs with waves of change
As the Goodness Ocean must

As I Stand Today

Ode to the she-stranger, whom I never met

Yesterday, upon my knees

“Respiras,” my aura begged her

Then quietly and years ago, she-stranger did oblige

As if she wore my atoms, said for only me to hear

“You lucky, lucky girl´┐╝.”

Original Thought Credit: Marty McConnell’s “FRIDA KAHLO TO MARTY McCONNELL”

Aura Again

Swim away back

Into the deep, deep color of you

Wear your aura again

Be breathing

Envisioning

Let loose the back muscles that constrain you

Go deeper to come higher

Think cinematographically all along

Your spirit animal and apex instinct

Cameras rolling, claim it

Neverlove

Proof I wasn’t broken when we met

I loved unguarded

Neither life vest nor safety net entered into the equation of me plus you
I just trusted my breath and followed the man who’d stolen it from me

I trusted

Not knowing you couldn’t

Never expecting you’d studied me, unwilling instead to blindly follow wherever your heart might take you

I was a calculated move for you

Where did that get you but gone
And I can no longer breathe

Staid

Absolutely as a mountain

Vast, ancient, complex

Unexplored by my eyes

Why?

Climb, I, your climate zones

Your staid steadies my feet

How am I to take nothing

This all you wish to give

Inhale a meditative Love

Exhale acceptance, heart

Come away untouched

Forbid!