Neither a nurturer
Nor a ‘til-the-end friend
Wasn’t a warrior
Just a walk-away-er
Giant, silent chaos-creator
Truth-debater
Left the City for the farm
Shallow, self-indulgent charm
The countdown’s begun
He’s long gone…and was always gonna run
What do you call that Far East Asian ancient sailboat?
The one that’s always amber-orange and silhouetted, multiple masts
Sailing slowly but deliberately to anywhere but here
Help me because I can’t think
What, with all the noise in my head, contemplating your silence
Your confident cowardice
What do you call it
I want to hitch a ride to anywhere but here
Treasure?
No — what do you call it?
Just this one more line
Just this one more time
But I would have drowned
If you’d meant to change
If it were the day
Strength you should have found
Boundaries are most real
Boundaries helped me heal
Cross none sacred ground
Cat and mouse throughout my dreams
At play, we
I don’t win
Pedigreed, you chose, not me — then you began again
The poor girl of your youth
I am
Too much proof of your roots
Together nevermore, old friend — how urban lights pollute
I’m sure you supposed
You were the bravest of men
By not looking back
These darkened months spent
He paid no thought to our vow
Were we not worth that?
Love and coward-worn
That I care for mere mortals
I can say no more
Photo: Wright Home and Studio;
Oak Park, Illinois; Sept., 2018
I was warned of the Yellow
The Yellow from the City
I liked its light, so
I defended it
Believed the best of it
Allowed it into my home, my bed
My sinew
I favored it
Fed it
Berries
I started to starve
Courageous, I asked for respect
Yellow, it fled
We stay silent now, Yellow and I
I was warned
But I still believe the best
For I’m forever Indigo
Nothing’s fitting
Not the double barrel shotgun you placed against my heart
Not your blindfold upon me anymore
Nor your murderous silence
I’ve outgrown your cowardice
The singe of alone you always left me is fading away
But the boy you killed, I’ll live with daily
Stolen from me, the memory gorgeous
The boy upon the hill calling me
Kissing me
After some schoolbell tolled
All these decades, still
When I wronged her months ago
She spoke to my calamity
With kindness
With humility
To her surprise, she empowered me
My ego now in overdrive
We’d make the Thousand Mile Drive
And I’d stay silent, in my self-defense
And punish her for her offense
Of trusting me with honesty
She wanted what I’d promised us
My best from me
Instead I killed her, once back then
Plus each day since
Her, my best friend
Her ghost grieves to this very day
But I am okay
I walked away