God Glow

Pancakes on a Sunday morning were never supposed to be so loud.
The only sounds I’d predicted were newspapers unfolding, rustling pages after an appropriate period of time.
Harp-laced sunshine musically poured from the orange juice pitcher to your glass, my son.
Cozy, fluffy, buttermilk breaths, exhaling at long last, I wanted for us.

But the week had gotten the better of me.
Instead you heard man’s demands and the echoes of entitled children.
Screeching chairs against cold floor tiles and anxiety-producing forced air overhead.
Waste and plastic and a bit of excess.

But there was the blessed color, wasn’t there?
Tell me you noticed, beautiful.
The smiles of the Sunday workers, employed by capitalism, but still genuine and holding their own.
The crowd beside us in Sunday best, good news and gospel aglow.

Brothers and sisters we are.
Take that from the morn, my child.
This lovely, winding, seasonal scene of our lives.
And the time we were given and allowed ourselves.

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Photographic Memory Expedition

One would ask, “Wouldn’t it be lovely?”
Driving down gridded streets that sometimes wound East, then South.
Thinking of shutters painted contrasting colors, or perhaps altogether removed.

One imagines children’s summertime voices.
Carefree and popsicle glee, front sidewalks their territory.
As it should be.

One seems perfect there.
Small and yellow, with miles and miles of welcome.
Surely big enough for whatever weather.

Give-Up Girl

I’m calling this poem, ‘How to Give Up Hope’

For four Novembers, I have been wishing for words to write it

They have escaped me

Forgive me, though I cannot forgive myself

I have no wisdom-filled ink

Except to write, be careful of virtue, it may enslave you

Tie you to the table and leave you starving, Hope

For this reason, you must

Give up, Hope

Strangely Dim

I guess I pity you

Is that okay to say?

I mean, you have these lofty goals

That you will not attain

You have the choice, you know?

On how you use your time

But do feel free

Whittle-away on me

Whose God has crossed The finish line

Great God

Wrap myself in trouble. Get inside its head. What’d it wish to teach me? Did it wish me dead?

It took my mind’s money. It pilfered my time. That I gave it all my heart, was my biggest crime.

As I speak, it’s storming -inside and outside. I may weep, but lift my chin, and in the truth abide.

I am mi-rac-u-lous. I am where it’s at.
I own the night, I own the day -whatchu think ’bout that?

I no longer worry. I’ve seen the mountaintop! When I wish to walk your way, my Great God helps me stop.

Did you think you licked me, with your fiery reign? I woke from your ashes, baby -come at me again.

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Received

Has it been said to me
Before
Through some spirit
Holy or Otherwise
I do not recall

Just that it occurred to me
Or came to me
Just this moment
Through some spirit
Holy for Certain

That
Any
Good in me
Is
Christ in me

Open Window

I see the bricked wall 
Mortared with steel
You guide my eye to a secret passage 

I see a wasteland
But when I kneel
You speak of wonderland waiting for me 

I see starvation
Stones for my meal
You reach out to me with my daily bread

I see the grey rain 
No hope to feel
You fly white flowers in front of my eyes