What magic man makes
Much of this tender heart-light
Touch the edge of me
How many times, the truth
Needing to offer it to me, they
Afraid
Unwilling
Believing
Falsely
That bruising the kind reed of me
A mortal sin to them
And so slayed me unbeknownst
In untold anguish
Silence!
A most unkind kindness
I will gift you
Machine man, me
Eyes clear now
Future-ready
Take your Soldier hand
Study, journey with you
This trip around the Sun
We familia
I will gift you
Speed demon, victory
Bodies torqued
This skin, yours
Time trials completed
Finish line, Westward
This whispered promise
We checkered-flags
I will gift you
Sugar boy, pie
Feed you tenderly
Sing to you
In perfect pitch
Make a wish
This catch-me vision
We with lights on
Forecast for today
Love, loyalty, snow-showers
One hundred percent
Nothing’s fitting
Not the double barrel shotgun you placed against my heart
Not your blindfold upon me anymore
Nor your murderous silence
I’ve outgrown your cowardice
The singe of alone you always left me is fading away
But the boy you killed, I’ll live with daily
Stolen from me, the memory gorgeous
The boy upon the hill calling me
Kissing me
After some schoolbell tolled
All these decades, still
I want warning
A premonition of apocalyptic heartbreak on the horizon
One single shot over the bow of my frontal lobe that jars me
Some tingling, dear sixth sense, some tingling!
All of which I shall defy for love’s sake
Where is the ether of you
You cannot be nowhere
Yet, I cannot find you anywhere
Never by my side
Never to my rescue
Never where I need you
Always, those days and these
I live as a void, a vortex
Forever, a you-shaped yearning
And apologize for what
The blessings unnoticed
The love debt, outstanding
The flesh gift, unopened
The mind’s galaxy, unexamined
And the words must be uttered
I’m sorry
Forgiveness, now granted
The eyes see the fire
The resolve, reignited
Family left longing
Tables for one
Festing less festive
Appointments to love
You missed
Less of your legacy
So much alone you left
I asked electrons keep me company
Come to my rescue
Subatomic somethings, surround me
In the perfect of now, get in line
Come see my spine
Singing prettily
My strong, fractured song
Standing upright, dancing, sprinkling
Cinnamon-sugar safety
In the spotlight of my doorstep
