Shade

Once I reach the top

I’d decided 

I’d trek another hill of sorts

I’d seek what ever shade was thrown

I’d not care of the noise or thorns or weeds

I’d stop to inspect flowers, picking up discarded things

Once I was discarded

yet alone

I was the one with saddened eyes
Through no fault but mine own
I faced the world with broken smile
Surrounded yet alone

And then I fell into your light
And then I saw your voice 
Though all the shallow prodded me
Your depth received my choice

Stricken

Dead in the water
Dead
Yet still flailing 
As the body will 
Grasping at the sea’s weeds
And the pretend hope that floats past
From above and below
I’m left knowing 
To praise and to damn the child I was