heal thyself (2)

My
Undoing
Began at the beginning
Defending the should-be defender

All I gave, all it took
There it was, their rain
Always asking 
Never, ever answering 

I think I thought 
It fed me to feed
Now I am fat of myself 
And starved of them

heal thyself (1)

I must stand
Born under some mandate
To remain flexed at the ready 
But for this 

As I am organic
Cracking apart, waning with each moment
I cannot stay
Staid

For this story
And to tell it
With due care and congeniality 
I must sit

little

Pretender, who are you
Why do you wear white at night 
Is it true, as they have said
That you should not exist

What trouble brings your heart to act
Where others will not tread 
Here upon this storied way
Are you glad to guide me

smiles beginning

Do you choose the music you wrap yourself in 

Or does it choose you

How does it begin

I’d lay bets you reach out

With willowy fingers 

And some silken spider’s web smiles

And ensnares you as you thoughtlessly smile back

Coaxing it close around you, knowing you’ve no need to grasp

And this music and this you and this ease 

Finds us ensnared in the silk and the silly

Smiles beginning