heal thyself (2)

My
Undoing
Began at the beginning
Defending the should-be defender

All I gave, all it took
There it was, their rain
Always asking 
Never, ever answering 

I think I thought 
It fed me to feed
Now I am fat of myself 
And starved of them

heal thyself (1)

I must stand
Born under some mandate
To remain flexed at the ready 
But for this 

As I am organic
Cracking apart, waning with each moment
I cannot stay
Staid

For this story
And to tell it
With due care and congeniality 
I must sit

Betty

Doll-play 

Lasted all of three months

For me my friend

Declared abandoned 

Once the pattern repeated

Once two many times 

For me to ignore

How they toss her aside 

From their box

And steal her pretty shoes

Backward to Here

Or are there cobwebs inside 
Is the dream still alive 
To let me see inside
To beg the moon 
To the window pane 
To plaster my aching face 
To run then walk up 
From here to there
To speed thru urban then country veins
I am consumed with the want
Now cracked by Creeping Charlie 
Atop a concrete vast 
Always remained empty
A shiny brick and glass box
An oasis to soothe the desert 
The middle of rural elsewhere 
When I’d hope for 
I witnessed years ago
The barn-raining of sorts
Racing back to my mind’s insomniac eye
It is the middle of midnite
Here in the diamond city

Clutch

The conversation amongst Creation
Ripples through the wood
Chip-chirp, hoot-whoo, back and forth
Speak they, then stop
Perched strong atop 
The corner of their branches
To consider whether serving 
As her a.m. alarm 
Is worthy
Of their majesty 

Remembered

He
With a clarinet voice in June 
On a lone sun day sang his joy us tune
What a gift was he

Me
On a journey that won’t end soon
Thru windows without strings calling the moon
He’ll remember me


Orange

Please
Know what I don’t know to ask
Hear my whisper in your sleep
Awaken
Take my Hallows’ Eve hair into your hands
Pledge to me
Light a candle
Taste of orange
Ward-back this oddest of aches
Please